Immersion

So I had my first experience of "Immersion" in the past 24 hours and it's been.. crazy.

It started with a dancer who's just oozing with shameless love for Jesus inviting me to a "soaking session" in her room with some people. I learned that this was simply a time to invite the presence of God then listen to worship music and sit back and soak it up.
So I went, kinda desperate for some attention from God.
I left pissed.
He was definitely there, then He told me to read James. Which pretty much told me more flaws I had and how I was a hypocrite and a fool. Freakin A God!! I know I'm screwed up but I came here to "soak" you not to hear that!
Well I took it in stride, cause even though i hate it, i'm pretty used to finding out stuff that sucks about me. But then this morning we had our first "emersion" time as a whole DTS (YWAMers like to swim with God apparently) but it consisted of (talented musicians playing amazing) worship music and the hope that through emersion in everything that God is, people would be inspired to pray for each other.
Well taking James' advice, I kept a tight reign on my tongue all morning, and decided that I wasn't going to talk to anyone or even pray for anyone unless God was unmistakably telling me to. I'm usually praying for God to show me what to pray then going around praying for everyone I can. But I took the risk and humbly asked God to bless me. Which was super hard for me to just trust and wait.
Then someone read from the crowd how God disciplines the ones he loves, and asked what kind of father he would be if he didn't. Then all that conviction that I'd been feeling suddenly felt like love. Cause I know how my human parents love me, and how thankful I am for their discipline, but for some reason it never clicked till today that that's what God was doing with me.
Then, as if God could hear me or cared or something, two people came up and prayed for ME! I had never met one of them and barely knew the other but they just told me how my pursuit is not in vain and that I would be blessed. The music was loud so I didn't hear everything they said, but simply the fact that they took time for me was such. a blessing.
Then a friend came up and put his arm around me. And stayed there. A whole lot longer than, "hey bud I care about you." He just stood there and sang with his arm around me, hard to explain how awesome that was
So yeah, never really consciously immersed or soaked with Jesus until the past 24 hours, but now I'm definitely a fan